Late by one day, dude?? Haha well I did not really say I will do this when every month, so don't rat me out today is Friday I had more time and yesterday actually the whole week was just packed with livestreams that isn't the imouto. *laughs* She lives within my heart, that's good enough fuel. *dabs*
So yeah, this will be a monthly series, I will likely talk about a few main topics until the end of the year or until I run out of ideas, then maybe we will just do more short stories. Writing this diary in Japanese is also like, real hard on my monkey brain as I struggle to get phrases right.
Oh, and I'm totally NOT stealing the title from that Anime I am watching this season, no way. *giggles*
August 2nd (Friday)I love my Nan-chan, as a brother.It has been like this since the start: I created a family LINE chat group to get her phone number, messaged her lots under the excuse of knowing each other... This sister in a nutshell is just adorable.She soon ignored me though, I always go overboard on such things huh, me.But then, ever since I invited girls into our new home, I immediately got bombarded with questions, the mood between us has changed. Maybe she was jealous? I don't know. It is true that she has been easier to invite since, and she isn't being negative around me anymore, it was joy being with her.No romantic feelings though, I just feel great being by her side.Perhaps it's different compared to a girlfriend? I love them both, I can't split my love between them, it's impossible.I want her to forgive me for this at the least.And then, I want to love her every day. Such days to me is happiness in itself.Really, purely, just wanting to protect that smile of my stepsister.
八月二日 金曜日僕はナンちゃんのことが大好きです、お兄ちゃんとして。最初からそうですね、家族LINEグループ作って彼の携帯番号取ったり、知りたいことの言い訳に彼女のメッセージして。。。妹はとにかくかわいいでした。彼はすぐに僕のことを無視したな、、いつもやりすぎたかな、僕。でもね、ほかの女の子はうちに来た以来、すごく問題を絡みますね、雰囲気も変わった。嫉妬しているかな？これはわからない。確かに最近彼女さっ誘ってには楽になるし、僕の前で嫌な気持ちは示してないし、すごく楽しかったよ。恋愛感情とかないよ。そばにいたい気持ち持っただけ。僕の彼女比べて違うかな？二つの愛してるの、分けることがないよ、無理だよ。せめて僕そういうことは許したい。そして、愛し続ける毎日が欲しい。そんな日々って僕にとって幸せ。本当に、純粋に、義妹の笑顔守りたいだけ。
I definitely did not try hard enough to convey my emotions especially when I can in English, that's for sure. Like, I want to explain filling up her life and not let her feel lonely, but then I thought about her other 2 sisters (which I assume as always must be infinitely cuter than her) (hehe the parents have 2 more chances to iterate, dude) (haha ah) and I immediately felt more lonely than I have ever been. *laughs* So yeah, not revenge, no, not going to write that even if it's in my fictional diary. *giggles*
Yes, this is also with respect to the new fanfiction story I have done a couple of weeks back, where Nan-chan just starts to doubt on my "faithfulness" to her, to put this lightly. *laughs* Also, I don't know how to write what time I spent with Ten-chan in that hotel room so... let's just not talk about that. We know, we know. *laughs*
So this will do for now. Maybe next time, I will actually write more everyday moments of me being with my... many stepsisters MUAHAHAHA not gonna lie though I am very curious on who they are, the other two. We have heard of them on camera and that's all. Haha NO NO one sister is enough-